the struggling yuppie

visita iglesia

2006-04-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

the better side of life...

2006-04-12T07:12:00.000+08:00

i haven't really had the time to blog or let's just say i've been restless. but hey, after getting a 12 hour rest last night here i am.. all ready to post another long update on what's going on in my life.

first lets start with health.. nothing much new here except that i noticed when i started going to the gym, i could barely lift the bar when doing bench presses.. now i could lift the bar with 15kilo plates on each side.. that's a total of 50 kilos since the bar itself is 20kilos.. and that is an achievement of my own. and im very, very proud of it! =D..
what surprised me was i havent lifted the bar for almost 2 weeks-- but when i was in the gym yesterday for the first time since the last, i was able to bench press 50kilos with no spotter for a straight 6 reps per set.. i did 4 sets then a cool down set of 20 reps with 40kilos... am i getting stronger or what? hehe.. thanks to menshealth for the tips.. resting does a lot of gain and so does low fat milk... marami pang improvements not just in bench press but also when doing squats.. i can squat 60kilos for 5-6reps per set.. the one thing i havent utilized in the gym is the swimming pool.. but i have a lot of time to do that thanks to Drew for tipping me on the 1yr membership i got.. the BEST deal!!

for the past month, i've been scrambling toy and dvd forums to acquire my missing toys and dvds that ive been wanting to collect. i finally was able to get them but i must say, i had to PAY the PRICE! hehe.. its hard having a vice like this but hey, i get the fulfillment, achievement, and pride to offer myself.. i'll post pics soon...

as far as hobbies are concerned, i've developed a new one.. Digital Photography!
im still a novice but im getting there, so far i've acquired the necessary skills to make respectable shots.. sometimes i wish i was a wedding photographer, now that would be SO COOL! taking shots or loving and joyous couples and being part of it... someday i'll take photography classes, for now self-learn nalang muna.

the most updated news i can contribute to my latest blog would be the fact that i am now a Transaction Monitoring Evalutator! sa wakas.. i got promoted!
i had the interview last march 29 (before visiting thomson and getting something from drew). i thought i failed the interview due to the fact that my interview was short and sweet of only 25-30mins compared to the applicants i know of who had their interview for 40mins and another one of 1 hour! talk about things u least expect!

as much as i'd like to be a freak jumping with joy, i am more calm than when i first heard of my supposedly promotion last january... but this time its official.. i read the e-mail from on my TLs screen with the results of the successful applicants. 4 of us are successful and i think there were over 10 applicants on the list.. i didnt really take a look cause i was focused on my name on the screen... hehe.. i couldn't believe my eyes! i guess i truly deserve it huh? kuz ive gone through this process twice na. my training for TME starts on the 19th. what's good about the program that i'll be moving to is that whenever its a holiday in manila or in the US, i dont have work neither! yahooo!!!!! AND my OFF is weekends!!! wowoweeeee!!!! i'll be situated at Convergys ONE, the building infront of my previous employer, Thomson, so mas madalas ako dadalaw!hehe..
lets just hope everything falls into place, i plan to study sa MIT and good thing weekends off ko kc every saturday yung classes na gusto ko i-take for Cisco.... that's right! i want to be Cisco certified and go abroad.. yun kc ang in-demand sa abroad.. i'll talk about my sis in dubai next time..

yun lang.. so for those in thomson reading this, expect me to come over sa friday and perhaps a pizza treat! =D

PEACE!!!!!

house for sale sa bicutan

2006-03-09T04:50:00.000+08:00

i have setup a site where you can view the pics of the house here:
http://housesale7.tripod.com/house/
price is negotiable, starting at Php 6.8M
there's currently a family renting the place so if you're thinking of it as an investment, buy the place and let the tenants stay.. its your choice!

venting out

2006-02-18T04:53:00.000+08:00

it sucks to be me at this point.. worklife itself is what i meant.. i was on a high about 3weeks ago after being informed that i was promoted and i got the position i applied internally.... unfortunately about a week ago i was informed that that its not pushing through.. i dont want to get into details into it.. its just the fact that this is happening is all so fucking depressing and demoralizing...

i made sure that i would get the position.. i had the best scores, best laid out interview i can ever give and this just had to happen...i kept thinking to myself, what if i informed everyone of my promotion on my birthday where all my friends were and my dad's friends, etc.. how embarrasing it would be to tell them now that it didnt push through... buti nalang di ako nagbigay ng announcement.. but i did tell the closest people to me... And they werent a happy camper either when they found out what happened...

its just now that its sinking into me.. i dont blame anyone, i just hate the situation.. its a fucking disaster, people!!.. sorry for the language.. i need to vent this graciously fucking event in my life... arggghhhh!!!

im taking it pretty well pa rin.. the surveys i get from customers are still pretty much outstanding, fortunately we're still the #1 team.. but everytime i get a call, i tell these stupid fuckin red necks in my head to just shut d fuck up since im on a fucking crisis! u wont believe how STUPIDDD THESE RED NECKS ARE WHO ARE ALREADY ON A 1ST WORLD COUNTRY AND ARE SUCH MORONS!!!

haha!! u can tell im not taking it pretty well on this writing... sama ng fingers ko no?? tang ina! i guess theres nothing all this cussing can do... forgive me nalang everyone but i cant help it... let me vent out.. coz i think i FUCKIN DESERVE TO!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2006-01-02T12:15:00.000+08:00

1st post for the year!! ahaha... stadby lang, im gona start posting pics and maybe change the setting of the blog.. =)

getting fit...

2005-10-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

here is my long awaited post.. finally! ive been wanting to post since 2 weeks ago but i've been busy with a lot of things.. first lets talk about what happened during my 7 days holiday.. i spent the whole day resting on the 27th so all i did was sleep and watch tv, on the 28th i went to the derma to have my skin checked, it was at St. Lukes and the medicines the doc prescribed were not cheap- they cost almost 4k... they next day, 29th as a result of the prescribed medicines i was sluggish and sleepy.. so more tv and sleep.. then the next day was my Dad's birthday. celebrate kami... u must be thinking what a waste i've done so far.. no out of town or gimiks, just sleep???

well.. the next day after going to the chiropractor for Jasmin's regular session, we were planning to go swimming, something we havent done together.. its about time we did something physically challenging us and not just couch warming.. hehe.. but unfortunately i received a message from my dad telling me to go home kuz we had to send my mother to the hospital, she was having gas pains and it was getting worse.. and thats how we spent that first day of October, in the hospital... my mom got scheduled for an endoscopy and ultrasound for the following week...

on the 2nd, this is where it all started, how i got busy with my new hobby... jasmin, my sis and i finally swam in ultra.. masaya.. =) something different and we plan to make it regular.. after the swim, deretso podium.. sale e! and boy was that sale one of a kind! its not like a sale in other malls where only the left overs from the previous yr are being sold.. and so we splurged...sira ang savings. we both bought ourselves speedo swimwear.. tapos bumili ako ng nike shoes, tagal na kc ko di nakakabili ng nike... i've also wanted to workout na for a long time but figured i might not have the time if i enrolled myself sa gym.. so that same day i bought an EZ curlbar, 10lbs plates, 14lbs dumbells, and a skipping rope... wow, athletic!

the next day, around 6am, i jogged with my mom at QC circle, i was so unfit i couldnt even do 500m straight... and my running shoes were bothering me kuz they were worn out... after the jog, weight training na.. my goal: to lose my gut and have a leaner body with "hopefully ripped abs" by next summer.. ehehe... sobrang na bad trip ako sa running shoes ko so i went to sm after weights and bought myself another pair of nike running shoes and an exercise mat for doing situps, gusto ko sana yung nike free kaso sold out.. huhuhu!!! pero meron na ulit, nakita ko kagabi! bili nalang ako before the year ends... ehehehe..

the next day, the 4th, nag shopping ulit ako -- suki na ako ng toby's.. this time i bought a swiss ball.. dami ko nang nabili no!? u can guess how much my credit card bill is.. lets just say its closed to my limit... and its my first time to do this to myself.. but no regrets po!

after a week of excercising, i felt better of myself, in terms of health and self-esteem.. ayoko na talga ma ospital and i wanna be fit... MWF= abs, TTHS= weights-- cardio workout ko everyday (did u know 10mins of skipping rope burns the same amount of calories when u run for 30mins)... my tummy looks smaller than before... i regularly jog at sm cyberzone, yung buong kahabaan, im not sure how long is one lap but it looks like 500-600m. last week i could only do 4 laps back and forth.. this morning i was able to do 10laps with a burst of sprint for 15secs going up the second floor of the parking lot... i spend my sundays swimming now since oct.2 with my sis and jaz... last week i couldn't do half a lap (olympic size yung pool) yesterday i was able to do 2 laps non stop, freestyle..i am so proud of myself with the results i am gaining.. im not bragging ha, its such an achievement kc e, i swear it made me feel better in everything.. when i miss a run, i skip rope to make up for it.. ngayon focus ko yung core ko.. abs...

it helps din to have fitness buffs sa work, its encouraging and you get to have a lot of tips from them.. pero sila kc more on mass, ako gusto ko lang maging lean and fit... matagal ko na gusto mag work out, i've been collecting men's health mags since they came out here in the philippines, and i think being confined in the hospital was my wake up call.. pati na rin yung anxiety attacks ko.. i can safely say that my anxiety attacks are gone, i dont worry anymore, i take things more lightly now... sobrang seryoso sa work dati, ngayon puro kalokohan ang nangyayari! ahaha.. next time ko nalang ikwento kuz i dont really wana care.. pero aayusin ko yan, promise... iba lang ang priority ko ngayon, yun lang po!

Gemini ~ Sponge Cola

2005-09-30T06:47:00.000+08:00

Come a little closer
Flicker in flight
We’ll have about an inch space
But I’m here I can breathe in
What you breathe out

*Let me know if I’m doing this right
Let me know if my grip is too tight
Let me know if I can stay all of my life
Let me know if dreams can come true
Let me know if this one’s yours too

Cause I see it
And I feel it
Right here
And I feel you right here

The vacuous right
Steps aside to give meaning
To Gemini’s dreaming
The moon on its back
And the seemingly
Veiled room’s litBy the same star

Repeat *
And I feel it right here
And I feel you right here

seven days....

2005-09-27T09:40:00.000+08:00

im so happy today. i have been happy recently. for a couple of reasons but very important ones...

first is -- i THINK i've overcome my anxiety attacks.. it's been 1 whole week at di pa ako inaatake.. i have to say that a big help would be the newsletter i subscribed to about anxiety attacks, its a weekly newsletter with a few but effective tips.. few because the author is actually marketing his product.. so u need to buy it to get the whole program... but if i were to rate myself on how i am, i can safely say that im OK at 90%.. so may 10% pa... hehe.. breathing plays a big part as well as wishing for it to happen.. the author said that in time you will be the one to control these feelings and not the feelings control you.. im almost there kuz before i always think about it and it just tires me, now i think of it and it doesnt matter anymore....

second is -- God has answered my prayers, one way or the other i know it's Him who willed it. i've always wanted Sundays off kuz i really want to be with the whole family, its the only day in the week, we get to be together, and since my off is not block since last month, its been depressing and i miss them... also i want to celebrate mass not feeling drowsy... and of course to spend quality time with my baby whom i barely see these days....and so He heard.. starting October, block off ulit yung team and my day-off is sun/mon...=)

third is -- God again answered my prayers... everything does happen for a reason.. i filed for vacation leave about 2months ago for Sep 29-Oct.1 it so happened that this week my off starts today, 27th and ends 28th. Then of course, like i mentioned, starting october, sunday/monday off na (OCT2 and 3).. count the days i'll be off the phone.. that's 7 days baby!!!!! YAHOOOOO!!!!!!!

There's so many things i wanna do during that period, hopefully i'll be able to accomplish them... it will involve a lot of physical activities (running, swimming, etc), hopefully an out of town affair, a lot of sleep and meditation, and catch up on some movies and reading, malling, shopping, spending, eating!!! =)

this is the break that i so much need! thank you God for hearing me out! thank you catering to my needs...

mga LSS for the day....

2005-09-27T09:29:00.000+08:00

paki e-mail naman yung mp3 ng joy sakin.. hehe

JOY JINGLE ~Michael V.

I
Sangkatutak na luha ang pumapatak
Araw-araw at gabi ako ay umiiyak
Puso ko'y nagdurugo
Para bang mabibiyak
Kulang na ko sa ngiti
Tawa at halakhak

II
Sangkatutak na hamon ang hinaharap
Di naman tumitiklop
Di naman kumukurap
Tama na ang salita
Tama nang pag uusap
Pa'no ba mawawala
Ang aking paghihirap

Ref
I can win with Joy in my heart
Deep, deep down in my heart (2x)
J-O-Y Joy in my heartDeep, deep down in my heart (2x)

III
Sangkatutak na ang mga gumaya
Di ganong tumatagal
Di ganong umuubra
Panay ka naman bula
Pwede ba tigilan na
Wag sanang magulo
Wag na lang umapila

Ref 2
I can win with Joy in my heart
Deep, deep down in my heart
J-O-Y Joy in my heart
Deep, deep down in my heart (2x)

Kahit Pa ~ Hale

Muling lalapit
Ang liwanag sa paligid
At ang tinig
Na sa akin nagsasabing
Hindi mapipigil ng mundo
Papatunayan ang pangako
Dahil kailangan ka
Kailangang pakita natin tayo’y iba
At kahit pa
Hindi papipigil sa mundo
At sa umagang darating
Lahat ay aking kakayanin
At kahit pa ikaw lang at ako
Huwag mong iisipin
Ang mga harang sa atin
At ang ihip ng hangin ay darating
Bigla lang titigil ang mundo
At ang lahat ay maglalaho
Hindi ko man hawak ang panahon
Maging ang ikot ng buhay
Basta’t ikaw at ikaw pa rin
Ikaw at ikaw pa rin

blog mode na!

2005-09-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

b4 i go to bed.. log muna ako... its been a long time since i went out with jasmin not feeling
cranky.. kc ever since i had an irregular day off, whenever we would meet i would be so tired and not in the mood... sometimes struggling to keep up with the homily during mass... but today was different... for a long time now and it felt good to be well rested and having to hear mass, actively participating... after doing so we went to SM, went window shopping for some digicams
that i plan to get this december.. abangan niyo nalang, picture picture nalang tayo pag ok na! =) tapos we rent a couple of movies we havent seen... stepford wives and final cut... tapos bought a
whole fudge cake in brownies for out belated anniversary cake... dapat rocky road sa red ribbon but we were a little full, hehe...

ate lunch at home and then watched stepford wives.. it was OK, not spectacular but OK.. i like the idea of the story where men rule and are like king! hehe.. tapos yung final cut naman... grabe! i've had it with robin williams when it comes to drama.. i give up!! first time i saw him suck was with one hour photo and then with final cut, we didnt even finish the first disc, i think we barely reached 30mins before we decided to just watch regular cable... ang boring and super dragging yung movie!!!

we had one of our simple times and i missed it.. being able to just sit down, cuddle and watch tv while eating the fudge cake! yum yum!! =) it was a good day today.. and im getting better...
i just found out my day off this week is sun/mon.. yahooo!!! i get one more day off!!! =)

i've been thinking lately about returning to Thomson.. with all the stress ive been getting and my health at risk... its much more family-oriented and i just love the people there...hmmmm...

september 16.. happy 55th birthday ma! happy 3rd anniversary beh! ("x") mmwahhhh!!!

2005-09-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning i went to my physician, dr. lukban of capitol medical.. its been over a month since i drove the car because it was stuck in the workshop (it was repaired since the driver had an accident) ang sarap makapagdrive ulit, i missed it even when it was raining pretty hard yesterday.. i went to the doc alone around 10.30am, in which i spent almost 2hrs since ang dami nyang patients... when it was my turn, all the thoughts i had in my mind to tell him and to request for a longer period of rest went to waste... first, he examined me.. my vitals and all... ok na daw ako, i am fit to work and it wasnt necessary to extend any rest days...tapos yung sa anxiety attacks, he said i should see a psychiatrist.. the maxicare coordinator was on lunch by the time i went to be referred to a psychiatrist so i decided to leave the hospital and go to dang-wa...

ayun, nag shopping nalang ako ng bulaklak.. natuwa lang ako sa florist kc ang galing nya and the price was so worth it...sobrang na appreciate ko yung bouquet kc looking at how it started makes u appreciate it.... i got jasmin 3 dozen roses to represent the 36mons we have been together... tsaka it would be my first time ever that i would be giving her roses.. hehe.. tapos i got a bouquet of mums for my mother... after 30-45mins of watching the florist do her work, deretso ako sa i-bank banawe branch since dun na si jasmin naka-assign....

pagdating ko sa branch, the rain was stronger at wala akong parking.. so i did it as fast as i could kasi nahihiya din ako sa mga co-workers nya.. i gave her the roses, greeted her, and of course seeing her priceless look was all worth it!! =) she was busy that time counting money at malaking distration ako.. ehehehe... paglabas ko, i looked at my cellphone and had a lot of messages from my dad asking me where i was and requested to buy some wine and vodka for the party...

so i went straight to sm supersale and bought the requested goodies... got home and greeted my mom with the bouquet.. also another priceless look and reaction! =) first time ko rin kc nabigyan yung mom ko ng flowers...that time, her visitors were already there and the house was jam-packed.. yung visitors kc puro sisters ng mom ko and my cousins, and they were big people from bulacan... ehehe...

around 5pm, my sister, my brother and I went to pick up the cake we ordered at goldilocks.. it was a choco-butter cake with thick icing, maraming stars and there was an angel figurine in the middle.. parang pang sweet 16 yung cake.. hehe.. pero cute! =) we ate dinner about 8pm, my aunts got pretty drunk, at ang lakas nilang kumanta at tumawa... hehe... singing some old folk song... it was my joy and pleasure to see them here, and i know my mom really enjoyed and appreciated her birthday kuz they rarely come together in one roof..i was the camera man that night and i was glad i didnt go to work kuz i wouldnt miss yesterday for anything....

jasmin wasnt able to go to the party last night since she was also in a company treat which was "compulsory".. but it was ok kuz we were together today since this morning.. being together today was different from the other days we were together, kuz id usually be cranky/moody due to work.. but since i was from a good rest, i had a good time today.. sinamahan ko cya sa chiropractor niya tapos nag greenbelt kmi.. pero she had work din today.. so after lunch i sent her to work... masaya naman ako at nakasama ko siya na "quality" tlaga yung time spent... bukas ulit.. hehe.. kc di ako papasok tonight!!!!! =D

i just hope na may trabaho pa rin ako pag balik ko sa office...

fix me pls....

2005-09-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

morrow, sept.16 is one of my favorite days of the year... its because its my mom's birthday
as well as our anniversary (jasmin and i)... but this year im in a sad situation.. first is
because of my health.. recently, i've been having anxiety attacks, shallow breathing, verge
of fainting.. could it be worse?

i've been feeling this way since my traumatic experience with my bowel movement.. it stresses
me out... and my schedule at work is not very friendly... lately my sked for lunch is 2am ( i
get it at 7pm) so that's 7hrs before my lunch.. marami naman akong baon pero di rin e... to
think i've been working here for 1yr and 2mons, ngayon ko lang to nararamdaman... ang daming
factors e.. i dont wanna rant but i can say that the nature of my work adds to my stress
these days.... im afraid ill go crazy.. there's just so many things flshing in my mind
sometimes i just wanna kill myself... literally... what's happening to me?...when i think of the things i was able to do, i feel like i'll never be able to do them
again.. i hope i can fix this dilemma of mine..

tomorrow i'll be going to the doctor and i'll be requesting to have him make me rest for at
least a month or 2 weeks.. i need a lot of time for myself.. time to reflect and rest...
lapit na ma burnout.. or maybe im going through it na... this is the lowest point of my life
now and i hope i get through it ASAP... mahirap din pala emotional stress, tska magkaroon ng anxiety attacks...

i've been doing some research on anxiety attacks pero puro symptoms lang sa net e.. like shallow breathing, light-headedness, stomach/intestinal disorders.. lahat yun meron ako.. pati yung feeling na malapit na mag faint....
haayy... i hope i can get through tommorow without being distracted with all these stupid factors...

Fix You ~ Coldplay

2005-09-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

a tearjerker......

Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
Or you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

High up above and down below
You're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

SICk LeAVE

2005-09-13T09:43:00.000+08:00

what a week.. lets start with my VL starting aug. 30. i had my long awaited VL from 30-31.. 31 was my bro's birthday and we went out and watched valiant at galeria, then bought him some shoes... after those 2 days, i had my day off from sep1-2.. i had all the rest i needed, then came saturday, sep.3, before work i hanged out with Jasmin then slept for only 2 hours... after which i went to work--- i came back home the next day (sunday morning about 4am) slept for 5hours again, and when i woke up... there goes my week!! i felt sick.. my whole body just ached so i wasnt able to go to mass or enjoy my sunday/monday off.. i had to stay in bed and take biogesic every 4 hours.. i was better by Tuesday so i went to medical city in ortigas to get a med cert which i did...the doc told me not to take biogesic anymore to see if im really well, kuz it myt be jst the biogesic making me look well... so i did that.. then the next day i woke up feeling sick again... with the hype of dengue in our neighbourhood, we went to capitol medical center, dr. lukban, the internist attended to me and asked if i wanted to make sure it wasnt dengue, that meant doing a series of tests, blood culture, the works.. which i decided to do since i wanted to know if i really had dengue or not and was confined from sep.7-sep.12... there was a lot of paper work to be done b4 being confined.. philhealth , and the HMO (maxicare).. after that we were given a room at rm. 322-- a small private room but i am entitled to regular private which would be available as soon as there is a vacant room.

the small private consists of a reg. patient's bed, sofa and CR.. aircon of course....it was pretty decent but another day in that room, i could go crazy kuz there was no TV.. and the 3hours i had to spend alone since my mom went home to get some stuff, i was already worrying myself. it was during that time, a lot of things were going through in my mind-- like what if it had dengue/wat if it was something else worse??

first time ko ma confine in my life.. i was so annoyed of the attending nurse and 2 other doctors who had a hard time putting dextrose on me.. my left arm was basically punctured to death.. first the top of my palm.. no good, then the most painful part, at the side of the wrist.. i couldve smacked the nurse but i just let out a slight curse.. then the nurse said he'll just have a doc to the dextrose which they did on my right hand but not with a single shot.. the top of the palm , no blood came. but u know how they fiddle with the needle under your skin trying to puncture a vein?! that hurts man!!we ended up puncturing the side of my wrist which by that time i felt so light headed and wanted to throw up.. di ko kc ma take yung sa side ng wrist but it was there na and the hard part was over....

yeah right!!

then came the series of blood tests that they took from both arms. the 1st med tech who took my sample on the right arm had no problem, but he had a problem with the left!.... again! with the left arm!!! he puntured it 2times but with no luck.. this time i was getting worried with my left arm.. so the med tech said he'll get a doctor to do it.. so 2 resident doctors came and had a hard time themselves!! i lost count kung 3-4 times sila nag try sa arm ko but to no avail so what they did was puncture the vein under my 3rd finger.. it took a toll of me by the time they were done. but it worked and blood poured out slowly to the test tube...

the next morning, a different med tech took my blood on the left arm but she did it magically. 1 try lang and blood poured out fast to the tube.. daming tube niya na fill e.. 3 tubes ata.. the results of the cultured blood would take 3 days...

that same day i was transferred to a new room, a regular private room, this time with an extra bed, cabinet, centralizd aircon, fridge, and a TV!!! it was also during this day that my fever was on/off... i was given biogesic when my temp would reach 38.5 and above.. but anything below i had to endure it... a nurse would take my vital signs every 3 or 4 hours (BP, temp, and pulse).. then that night i was told i will be given an antibiotic but they had to do a skin test first which i responded well to.. so they plugged the antibiotic to my dextrose hose also.. so it was mixed now, dextrose and the antibiotic...i think i was given 4 packets of it but it made me feel better the next day... basically after i was given the antibiotic my fever did not return from there on. by that time i was eating a lot, my appetite was back and i was drinking a lot of fluids... jasmin came on saturday with 2 boxes of red ribbon-- 1 contained empanada 20 pcs-10 chicken,10pork and the other box contained mammon.. i feasted on them of course...hehe... from there on i was well na, the dextrose was taken off sat/sunday night..im writing all of this down since i dont wanna forget it... the hospital food wasnt that bad, there was always 2 ulam, rice, desert for lunch/dinner.. for breakfast, egg/sausages, lomi soup, from friday onwards it was like a holiday for me since i was better and all i did was watch tv and eat...

i was discharged yesterday after a long wait.. when i looked at the hospital bill, it was about 44K-- a bulk of it was because of the blood tests and the antibiotic they gave my thru dextrose, 1pack costs like 2.5k and a single blood culture was 1.5k... then there's the room, etc....thank God for HMOs and Philhealth i didnt have to pay for anything...

i kinda miss the hospital nga e, haha!! everyone there so accomodating and kind... but its time to go back to reality-- WORK!

o yeah the findings was viral infection, remember i only had 2 hours of sleep the day it started? that caused my immune system to be weak and therefore causing the fever to come back also.... that's my two weeks of september, for this month, i've only worked for 1 day! =)

pagod na pagod na pagod na ako!!!

2005-08-17T02:01:00.000+08:00

ang sarap mag off after going 7days straight and having really absurd break skeds, imagine having lunch after 6hrs and 45mins after logging in... i've been having a bad stomach as well.. thank goodness there's gatorade!! na e-eLBM ako lately due to the new sked, my stomach had to adjust to.. and its not just that, i got a really nervous stomach also.... when i think im about to poop, i freak and i poop, leteral!!! but its all good now. marami na akong kinain na saging, sprite at gatorade... gatorade helped a lot... i used to hate the nurse sa clinic namin kc when i asked for imodium, she'd say uminom ka rin ng gatorade, and i just thought that was rubbish... pero i take it back! =) ehehe...

hay, relax to d max ito... lately ang parating nasaisip ko is: pagod na ako at di ko na kaya... ayoko na! -- yup that's just it, im tired and need to take a vacation.. i miss my Jasmin... it's a good thing she's so understanding and patient we still make time to see each other on the weekend and celebrate mass.. last sunday we ate out, simple lang.. sa superbowl pero ang saya.. i love piggin out with her and satisfying her tummy... its funny kuz whenever she eats a lot, her tummy bloats like she's preagnant, no kidding!.. i remember our x-mas party back in '02 when after eating, my other classmates who arrived late asked me if she was preagnant, and they were serious! hahaha!!!

i need to pamper myself.. im contemplating on taking a vacation where Rach took hers after seeing the pix she posted, i only thought: PERFECT! a beach with not much people.. check it out: www.balai-resort.com/

one of these days im going to splurge on a vacation talaga, im almost burnedout... but you see i have a target savings by year end, and that's what's stopping me from splurging... some of you might be surprised kuz i dont buy much mcfarlane toys/ orig dvds anymore... im over that... i buy things i need and buy less of wants.... im into books and mags these days.. more of self-help and RD, kerygma... if you read a lot of bo sanchez's books, you'll learn to simplify and be happy with what you have.... there's this article in kerygma by rissa singson (aug '05 issue) that i am now making it my life mission (it was Oprah who said):

"WANT WHAT YOU HAVE AND YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE WHAT YOU WANT"

MY SON

2005-07-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

This is great, take a moment to read it, it will make your day!The ending will surprise you.Take my SonA wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art. They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael. They would often sit together and admire the great works of art.When the Vietnam conflict broke out, the son went to war. He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier. The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.About a month later, just before Christmas, there was a knock at the door. A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands. He said, ”Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly. He often talked about you, and your love for art.” The young man held out this package. “I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this.”
The father opened the package. It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man. He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting. The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture. “Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift.”The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings. Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection.On the platform sat the painting of the son. The auctioneer pounded his gavel. “We will start the bidding with this picture of the son. Who will bid for this picture?”
There was silence.Then a voice in the back of the room shouted, “We want to see the famous paintings! Skip this one!”But the auctioneer persisted. “Will somebody bid for this painting. Who will start the bidding? $100, $200?”Another voice angrily. “We didn't come to see this painting! Wecame to see the Van Goghs, the Rembrandts! Get on with the real bids!But still the auctioneer continued. “The son! The son! Who'll take the son?”Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. “I'll give $10 for the painting.” Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.”We have $10, who will bid $20?””Give it to him for $10! Let's see the masters.””$10 is the bid, won't someone bid $20?”The crowd was becoming angry. They didn't want the picture of the son. They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections.The auctioneer pounded the gavel. “Going once, twice, SOLD for $10.”A man sitting on the second row shouted, “Now let's get on with the collection!”The auctioneer laid down his gavel. “I'm sorry, the auction is over.””What about the paintings?!?””I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings.The man who took the son gets everything!”God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross. Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: “The son, the son, who'll take the son?”Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything.FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE.Please send this to ten people and back to the one who sent it to you.Do whatever you like, but remember that maybe one of the people you might have taken the time to send this to, may be just the person who needs to hear this message. You have a choice to make.God Bless.

na inspire ako sa post ni boggs

2005-07-07T10:26:00.000+08:00

i was catching up on everyone's blogs today and i read one of boggs' post, the one about his graduation... what he went through to get to where he is right now... the trials he had to go through to get through college... d kasi masyado nag kwento c boggs tungkol dyan before but now that i know most of his story about his trials in college -- he has given me the strength and inspiration to not be afraid to take risks and to do what you have to no matter what it takes... what i like most about his post is that he didnt give up and of course yung linya na "nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa"--

im currently in the crossroads myself kasi... i hope whoever read this can give their insights as well, i know what im supposed to do but some things limit me... most of my friends know how much i like to study and get a degree in Computer Science. I have this urge, this interest, and i know i can excel in that subject kasi hilig ko yan... i can easily understand what others may think "alien" to them... I plan to study kasi sa Informatics-- for starters its international and they have a big center right next to SM, walking distance lang... actually the school doesnt matter, whether it be AMA, STI, etc.. but since dyan lang Informatics and it's reputation is very good, why not?

here are some thoughts on why i hesitate:
(1.)-- there are people in the workplace im in right now that have graduated in that field, we have architects, engineers PTs, (basically licenesd professionals), etc and still their in the call-center industry.. i dont wanna put it to waste naman if ever i study and end up like them. --(2.)--sked of school as to my work/shift
(3.)--money-- tuition-wise i dont think i can afford to go through 3 yrs by myself at a tri-sem pace (800php/unit) especially if i stop working! i dont wanna depend on my parents, they've done enough by putting me through college.
(4.)--money again-- its simple economics..we have abundant supply of comp. grads and not enough work... so that means starting pay would be very low once i grad.
(5.)--money again-- since i do share in terms of expenses in the household, and if i resign to study, mahihirapan mga tao d2..... opportunity costs to forego my digicam, mp3 player, gadgets, dvds (but i can live with that ;o) )

so given the situation and what's keeping me from studying me.. i'd really appreciate any ideas or insights, readers of my blog and post on the comment link below! =)

that is all folks! whatever happens next year, i know it's God's Will...
wish ko lang tlaga makapag-aral ng com. sci kc its what ive always wanted...id understand if its not His will, but im hoping! =) medyo sanay na kc na di ma22loy.. haha! kc naman diba, 1st choice ko yun nung college, di ako nakapasa sa qoata! tapos gusto ko ng computer skul (kahit ano basta computer skul) e gusto ng mom ko sa ust ako (ok, fine, just to make her happy! =) masunurin na anak kc e! im not being sarcastic btw), e di 2nd choice bagsak ko (commerce)... tapos after resigning from Thomson...well, here we are! =)

i believe this is all God's will... why?
--i wouldn't have met Jasmin if i was not in UST.
--i would not have had a great experience with Thomson as my first employer.
--and most importantly i would not have met the people i treasure as my friends in Thomson! =) .... more like a family, actually! =)

i just wish somehow ma2loy na yung gusto ko... pray for me guys! =) cause i believe in prayers a lot! =)

anong bago.... hale! =)

2005-07-07T09:23:00.000+08:00

i wasn't planning on getting anything in the mall last monday.. it was my day off and i was just hanging around SM... usually that would mean walking around, window shopping, reading mags in bookstores, listening to music in tower records (SM north is just a 10min. walk, its pratically the backyard).... it was a rainy day and the tunes of "the day you said goodnight" by hale and "stay" by cueshe kept playing in my head... so that's when i went to tower records and auditioned hale's album...

the music and tunes they sing are very Coldplay-inspired.. i loved it! bought it! played it at home! hehe... =) i was impressed that these guys were pinoy and they sound so foreign...i was so psyched with the content of the album, i wasn't able to sleep.. yup! and i even had shift that night!..... SULIT! as in! the album has very deep, colorful tunes.. i was proud of the album and the music... 12 songs.... and im actually listening to them right now as i type this blog... i was choosing between bamboo's new album, cueshe and hale.. .. hale got the best of me.... and kanina i was watching myx.. sila pa naman yung No.1 sa daily top ten! =)

cueshe is catching up though, i'll audition their album next payday.. ;o)
to be honest, this is the first time i bought a Pinoy album na original, in years! the last was truefaith and parokya, but that was back in college, didnt really have cash for the originals and the stalls outside UST gates are full of pirated albums... sorry parokya and truefaith! =) ... i also like the fact that there are alot of quality albums out there by bamboo, rivermaya, kitchie nadal, nina, etc... praokya's beginning to sound like a boyband, i hate that tune from their latest single.. its IRRITATING!.. sorry parokya fans... taste and preference lang naman... =)

more reviews here... http://reviews.blogger.ph/2005/06/hale-hale/

continuation of father's day kwento

2005-07-07T09:04:00.000+08:00

i realized that this was on of my treasured moments in life this year... with my schedule, i barely spend time with my family even on my days off.. i missed my family so much, i wanted this day to be speacial, and indeed it was.... even if i had to replay this day over and over again, i'd be glad to do so.... even the part where i left the key in the car.. ahahaha...

well anyway, we had our lunch at Max's--- it has the best view so far, in my opinion, of the volcano, compared to Dencio's.. i've never seen it more detailed and the angle was better.. anyway, again one of the touchie moments was having my dad received his gift from us... first we gave him a card, the card was pretty ordinary, but reading back on what we as his children had put in it, i understood why my father was teary-eyed... im not very expressive physically to my parents, but i do express it in one way or the other-- I love them.. so much!!!

then came a waiter who delivered the gift, it was a SE cellphone, K300... yup, my dad was happy with it as well... he'd been wishing for a colored phone dati pa kc...
anyway we went home after lunch kuz my bro had to be back in the seminary by 3/4PM...

end of story... =)
post pics next time... when i have time! ehehehe....

Father's Day 2005

2005-06-28T15:20:00.000+08:00

lets see here.. last June 19 was one of the days i wont forget.. spent time with family like i never had in a long time.. it felt good being with family and my girlfriend, out of town on Father's Day.. we got up as early as 4am coz we didnt want to be caught in traffic, or face the hot weather.. we left the house round about 5.30, picked Jasmin up from her place and straight to Tagaytay where we celebrated Mass... after that we went straight to Caleruega. Things didnt really go smooth after the mass coz when we reached caleruega, i was all excited to show them the place. Jaz and I have been there when we had our retreat last march 2k3.. so both of us were really excited to go back coz we really liked it there.. the view, the fresh air, just being out of the city and being close to nature for a change, you know?.... me, being all excited and a sucker left the friggin key.. HAHA! i was the last to leave the vehicle and i left the friggin key in the ignition! there you go! that spoiled the day pretty much! i was so p*st, my cousin was like.. never mind, dont want to talk about her here! basta, she was ANNOYING!... anyway we spent 30mins or a good 45mins with kitchen staff and care-takers figuring out a way to break open the car.. the front door locks were pretty heavy, didnt have any equipment, altough we had some wire, it wasn't hard enough to pick the locks... lemme just give u a picture of how it looked like.. 2 guys were trying to open the 2 front doors, another 2 guys trying to rig the windows, then me and my dad trying to pick the lock of the back of the car.... tibay pala tong FX na to!! in the end we broke the door lock of the back door and VOILA!.. so by that time we were done breaking into our own car, i was exhausted, u know, the pressure, the heat.. but we still had time to enjoy the view, relax, have a breather, take pictures and buy souveniers... there was a wedding at that time by the way... but after they were done, we had time to pray in the chapel....

(to be continued... gotta go to bed na, bago na shift ko e, 9pm to 6am.. bukas ulit!)

1st post since forever

2005-06-14T14:57:00.000+08:00

hehehe, its been a long time.. a lot has happened.. nothing much exciting or out of the ordinary... just been pigging out lately and i dont fit in my other pants no more! =(

excited na ako pumunta calaruega this weekend, June 18th with my family and Jaz... it's when we're gonna celebrate Father's day na rin to avoid the rush of Father's Day Sunday... i can just imagine the traffic in malls, highways going to tagaytay, etc...

anyway, what's been keeping me from posting lately is the fact that i've been lazy, walang internet load, been busy watching movies and eating like there's no tomorrow. =D

ang malas ko this week....

2005-05-05T06:19:00.000+08:00

for the first time since my regularization, na late ako-- an hour and 40mins late!! aarghhhh!! and what was the reason???? --- STRESSS!!! ---the start of my week is nothing but stress!! after getting a nice cold shower yesterday i slept 9hrs straight only to find out it was 3.15am the next time i opened my eyes (work starts at 3)... my phone was being charged outside my room.. genius, huh?! that's why i didnt have anything to wake me up!!

and it doesnt just end there, on my way to work on a bus, i was supposed to get down at Ayala, but guess what?! the bus went straight to the underpass!!! bumaba ako sa Arnaiz at nag taxi pa ako!!! 50php din yun, anak ng @#!@!! ang malas ko tlaga!! haaaaay!!!

then Jasmin texted me a while ago... she didnt go to work today cause she's sick! =,( ...i'm worried of her condition, i hope she gets well soon... i miss her so much.... i'll visit her later....

i wonder what other bad luck the week has in stored for me!! =( this week started out bad and its getting worse, i hope it ends better..

God Help Me.....

sa wakas may time ulit ako mag blog!!!

2005-05-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

yep, i've been pretty busy these past few days... i've been wanting to post since my last entry but due to the heat, coming home tired, and just so many other things in mind i just hadn't had the right opportunity to just sit and form my thoughts.... in short, stressed ako!

yep lemme just start with Sunday, May 1. The first Sunday of the month, which happens to be the day of the Kerygma Feast. I was disappointed with this day for many reasons... Everything was going as planned during the morning--- Jasmin and I celebrated Mass at UST, and the Homily was just amazing I couldn't help but be moved of the message. It was about how all of us claim to love God but lack in many ways (in actions/thoughts/words).. The very message was that Jesus loved the Father, and to love God was to live the life of obedience -- to submit to God's Will... A very simple and short message but I was struck by it. It made me realize a lot of things... Jesus submitted to the Father's Will, even if it meant to die on the cross... until Jesus' last breath, did he obey the Father... Wow! Obedience at it's finest!

After the Mass we went to Megamall because I had to get something from my officemate who agreed to meet me 9.30AM at Starbucks. We arrived quarter to 10 and probaby waited Starbucks for half an hour, my patience was being tested... again!! arggghhhh!!! =)
i bombarded my friend with text and missed calls but no answer, I honestly thought she wasn't going to meet me anymore... so we ate at Mcdonalds with Jaz's sis-- the 3 of us. Mga 10.30 na, wala pang text... while we went back to Megamall, that's when I recieve a message from her -- nakatulog daw siya at ngyon lang daw na gising!-- ARghhh Man!!! i thought! well at least she said she'd still meet with me which gave us 3 the time to do some window shopping--- well enough of that, to cut long story short 12.30 na kame nag meet (ang original time was 9.30am----, then to top it off, my girlfriend was not feeling good because it was her first day... and you know how first days are for some women.... the weather couldn't even cooperate and cut me some slack, i was just too stressed-out by the time I thought about attending the Feast!!

O well! sana next month, matuloy na!!

The next day, Monday May2, I got up and found out my dad was having a fever... i took light breakfast, then sinamahan ko si Papa and Mama sa Capitol medical Center... it sucked to know that there was NO doctor present for Medicard patients on that day.. nag holiday din sila!!! waaaaahhhh!! ----- we ended up doing a check up at the satellite clinic of Medicard at SM North's 3rd floor where my dad was examined. It turned out he had tonsilitis and that was why he had a hard time swallowing and his fever kept returning... at least he's doing better now, i think he's well--- another thing that really made me furious was the fact that my dad who just came from a medical checkup that day was going through his paperwork and he was doing something at the computer.. argghhhh!!! tigas ng ulo! Workaholic kasi.. i guess it's just in his blood!! i had to constantly nag him to rest, go to bed, and sleep! he just wouldn't listen...

that same day my sister, Ate Lyn, and I went to Anson's Makati and got a water dispenser, it has it's own filter, so you dont need to buy those 5gallon water bottles and have them delivered.. just pour tap water onto the purifier and, voila! Purified Water!! =) ... late na ako naka2log that night cause i wanted to make sure the water dispenser was working well... which it did naman.. until....

the next day while working i got a text message from my dad asking me to get the contact info of the dealer of the water dispenser cause there was no water coming out from the faucet of the Hot side.. my weekend couldn't get any better!!! grabe!! i had 2hrs of sleep the previous night to make sure the dispenser was working fine only to find out it conked out the next day-- welll it was defective-- so i couldn't say i conked out the dispenser cause i never really had the chance to fully utilize it!!! so after arriving home, to my disappointment and disgust I went back to Makati!!! yes!! Makati again!! nakakasawa na ang Makati that time! i had to go back carrying the dispenser and when I got there, I made sure they saw what I was experiencing.. which they did... i didn't really carry it, i brought the FX. buti nalang available yung sasakyan, kc usually the driver would be using it to generate everyday income-- but he was in the province and he was not returning till Friday-- to add to my already STRESSFUL day, it was TRAFFIC in EDSA!!!! mommyyyyyyy!!!!! ano ba yan!?!?!? i wanted to just cry cause of all the stress! la pa kc akong 2log!!

I had the unit replaced-- tested it to make sure it was working-- that gave us a good 2 hours-- as in i wanted to be sure it's working fine according to my dad's standards-- kasama ko parents ko this time---

it was night time na when we got home, i had 3 hours of sleep then i had to get up, take a shower and go to work.. for for the past 48 hours, I've only had a total of 5hours rest... so if u noticed my entry is pretty rushed-- i need to take a cold shower and just drop dead on my bed!!! ang init!! i'll post soon, this time hinde rushed.... c ya! =)

PS Belle, thanks for the comments! and Drew, thanks din! =) Guys, please try and use the Haloscan feature sa dulo ng mga entries ko kc sa office I can't read contents of my tagboard, may firewall kasi, naka surf control! thanks! =)

sleepless days.....

2005-04-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

before i go to bed, post muna ako... its been a long time since my last post.. last thursday night, i met up with my Thomson buddies and ate at Tokyo Tokyo at the People Support Center. Masaya ako makasama ulit sila, since na miss ko sila! =) ... i wasn't supposed to go since i was really tired, and i hadn't had any sleep.... so when i called them to inform that i wouldn't go, grabe! nag-drama si mel! tapos si rach, for the first time, she sounded like a possesed person-- she gave me the Linda Blair expression.. u know with the forced-husky voice saying "sumama ka na!! arghhh!!!" .... (Linda Blair from The Exorcist!!! LOL!!!) Syempre natakot ako, pumunta nalang ako, tsaka bihira lang tlaga kc kme makumpleto pag sa mga gathering, including Jane! i thought i was late for the meet, but it turned out i got there about 10mins earlier than they did.. it was a hot night and i was kinda sweaty!! kaya when we we're eating i didnt really feel comfortable, medyo mahina din yung aircon.. pero ok lang, masaya din! di ko lang masyado silang nakausap as in what's going on sa lives nila.. syempre they had work the next day and Jane had to go home din... masaya ang lekats kc nakapag bonus!! grabe, kkainggit!! pero ok lang... =) umasenso na yung phones ng iba, ako lang ata yung may monochrome na cellphone at c mel, pero papalitan na rin cellphone nya since may bonus na! ehehehe... ako, i gave them a taste of my jokes, sana na inspire sila! ganun kababaw kaligayahan ko e!!

after the dinner out, i stayed at the office and found out to my surprise that my former supervisor was still working and that was 10PM! wow!! his dedication and commitment to his work humbles me, and i admire him for that... its not just how he works but how he handles the team that i admire as well, sobrang sipag niya.. and i remember when I was in Thomson, sobrang perfectionist niya...

i left Thomson along with Andrew and Boggs around 11 or 11:15pm... can't remember... then i went to the employee lounge at the 50th floor PBcom, where i slept from about 12-2.30am.. my shift starts at 3am.. and boy was i DISORIENTED when taking calls!!!! buti nalang ok yung kols ko and walang long kols.. medyo naging impatient lang ako sa mga slow customers... i went home and dropped dead on my bed after lunch-- di na ako nag dinner! tapos trabaho ulit!!....

well.. what can i say! all for the Lekats! isang araw lang naman yun e, tagal ko na rin sila di nakasama... buti nalang nag txt c mel thanking me of my presence the previous night.... i really appreciated that since u guys know what i had to go through from my story... the txt message made me feel appreciated. Thanks Mel! =)

today naman, after work, i walked to the Greenbelt chapel and thank God for the many blessings and reflect on the past week.... its becoming a habit actually... every Saturday after work.... nag-confess din pala ako... i feel lighter after confessing and i find myself confessing frequently unlike before... it's just a wonderful feeling after confessing, taken that you're really sorry for your sins-- i can't imagine life without this Sacrament....

bukas mag jo-jog ulit ako tapos after that go to mass in the morning, and hopefully if God permits, I'll attend the Kerygma Feast for the first time and when i do, i'll post my experience here! =) the Kerygma Feast takes place every first Sunday of the month... tell you guys more about it since im really sleepy now-- it's a busy day tomorrow! =)

... AND GOD SAID "NO."

2005-04-27T09:10:00.000+08:00

... AND GOD SAID "NO."

I asked God to take away my pride,
And God said "No."
He said it was not for Him to take away,
But for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
and God said, "No."
He said her spirit is eternal,
While her body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience,
And God said, "No."
He said patience is a by-product of tribulation.
It isn't granted - it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness,
And God said "No."
He said He gives blessings,
Happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain,
And God said "No."
He said, "Suffering draws you apart from
Worldly cares and brings you close to Me."

I asked God to make my spirit grow,
And God said "No."
He said I must grow on my own,
But he will prune me to make it fruitful.

I asked God if He loved me,
And God said "Yes."
He gave me His only Son, who died for me,
And I will be in heaven somedayBecause I believe.

I asked God to help me love others
As much as He loves me,
And God said,
"Ah, finally you have the idea."

~by Claudia Minden Welsz

i am SOOOO unfit!!!!

2005-04-25T14:18:00.000+08:00

gosh its hot these days! i've been wanting to post since yesterday but i was too tired to think of what I was gona put after yesterday's activites...

yesterday, for the first time since a million years ago, i jogged and brisk-walked non-stop for 45mins! i used to be able to do that for about 1.5hrs! i am just so unfit! now my legs soar.. i did this at SM north's parking lot since i just live behind the mall... i've got to do this reguarly, i am just SOOOO unfit!!! my tummy's bloating and my pants are tighter these days... hehe...

i read Rach's post in her blog about her work on the Lehman Bond Indices with Mervs... i used to handle that market when i was still with Thomson, and upon reading her post i felt sorry! i wished i could do something to help... at the same time, i felt relieved i wasn't handling Lehman anymore... believe me it was a pain! but i do miss the work sometimes, not to mention the in between slacking and surf-all-u can perks!

58 series with 21 datatypes and an excel file with figures reaching 5,000+ lines?!?! goodluck to you, Rach and Mervs!hehehe... reading Rach's post reminded me of the stress Lehman had on me, and with Lehman comes Data Ops.. Data Ops are the people who download the data so we can process and analyze them.. the Data Ops team are from London and India... anyway, misunderstandings with them and recurring e-mails asking them to do a favor can also be a pain! =) .... it felt good though, reminiscing work and life at Thomson... i do miss the work at times, but most of all i miss the people i worked with! =)

after jogging, I went to pick Jasmin up and we attended the 8am Mass @ UST-- it felt good!!... so good to attend mass in the morning on a Sunday... i've always longed for my day-off to fall on a Sunday, and God heard me... =) after that we hanged at our place-- something we missed doing... just spending quality time with each other, watching movies and eating pizza... our day ended with each other after watching Pope Benedict's Inaugural Mass...

the day didn't go as smooth though... when i went to fetch Jasmin to go to church, she wasn't replying to my txt messages or calls on her cellphone, i was at her front door about 15mins before 8 (she lives near UST). I wanted to be in the church at least 10-15mins earlier so i could pray/reflect before the mass... it turned out she left her cellphone in another room that's why she wasn't able to reply to my msgs/calls--- so, when she got in the car, she was apologizing to me on the way to church... usually my reaction to that kind of behaviour would be a good yelling session... but i contained everything and just kept quiet all through the trip... good thing we weren't late.

it was after the mass that i gave a good talk! hehehe.. she agrees to what i had to say and after that OK na! =) wow! i thought, usually i'd be so mad and i'd be yelling -- but there was no point, she was sorry already, and all the while i was telling God to calm me down-- still i did give her a nice long sermon! =)

--sanctify me o Lord for I long to be more like you everyday--

Viva il Papa!

2005-04-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

i was awakened by my sister who called me up (about 30mins before 1am) on my cellphone telling me "...aren't you watching the news? a new pope is elected!!"--- at that moment I rushed out of my room-- into the living room where the TV was and my parents were watching the news live when the announcement came-- Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, now our Pope. Pope Benedict XVI. i was overjoyed!
at work i've been reading the reactions of different people regarding the outcome of the election. i was surprised to learn that most of the liberals (mostly the american catholics) were against or were not happy with the outcome... they feel that the new Pope would further divide the people and the church because of Ratzinger's conservative ways...
but i strongly believe that if you choose to be a catholic, then abide like one-- let me quote one of the reader's comments that i agree...
"... just because the moral views of our society have changed, it doesn't mean the entire Roman Catholic Church needs to follow in lockstep. I am Catholic, a young adult, and I do have difficulty believing all of the teachings of the Church. But I am also relieved that if I go into any Roman Catholic Church in the country, I know what I am supposed to believe, and it is my choice whether to accept those teachings. If you don't want to follow the Church's views, then you should find another faith that is more consistent with your views. There are more than enough variations to choose from. I don't think there is any "right" religion, but if you proclaim yourself as Roman Catholic, then you also need to abide by the Church's current theology."~Suzanne Gaffke, Eugene, Ore.

the extended weekend

2005-04-19T06:17:00.000+08:00

it looks like my 4-day weekend is stretched to 5! why? blame it on Meluz Montenegro!
yes! her! she didn't warn me that prolong viewing of Alias could cause me a sore back!

It was so soar, i couldn't sleep properly.. i had my mom massaged it with various oinments but to no success.. so i called in sick and slept on the sala floor on a banig since I felt more comfortable on a flat and hard surface... si mel tlaga kc! pahamak! joke!!! ehehe...

well my back's OK now, good think hindi blackout day today or else I'd have to get a freakin' med certificate... you see when u work in call centers, there a days they call blackout days in which bawal mag absent, kung mag-aabsent you need to be sick and with a med cert. kung wala, written warning, tapos ba record ka na... which destroys ur chance of applying for a higher position for 3 mons... pero ok lang im happy and satisfied with where i'm at right now... im not ready for additional responsibilites... not ready in a mental and spiritual sense.... it doesnt mean im not preparing myself though.... so let's just wait and see.

updates...

2005-04-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

ayun, ayos na yung tagboard, site counter, and some links... still need a lot of improvement on this site though...

yesterday nag pakalbo na ako.. ang init kc e! nothing much new except my face looks rounder which is good cause i also wanted to look fat... speaking of fat, im struggling at that too, i gained 10lbs in a month and my pants seem to be tighter these days... but i'm gonna utilize these fats/carbo/calories soon... sira pa kc rubber shoes ko... =)

on alias, im down to 1 more disc... grabe! mel, get ready for season 2!! how many seasons are there nga pala so far? i was a couch potato right after lunch.. watched 5 straight episodes and now im dead tired... bukas ulit! sori mel, 1 pang araw, ehehe! lab mo naman ako diba? hehehehe!!

skinny on the long weekend

2005-04-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 days all i've been doing was bumming around, literally! last saturday me and my girl watched Alias season1 from which i borrowed from Mel.. nasa 4th disc na ako.. i got 2 more to go... i never really had the chance to appreciate the show till now... really good character development too... today is my last day bumming and i'll be goin back to work tonight.. haaaay!! ang bilis talaga ng oras, my four days of vacation is down to 1... and i wonder what am i gonna do today...the reason i borrowed whole season from mel was to occupy my time for the whole 4 days, which did pretty well.. i didnt want to go out and spend since i had a target savings by year end...

im busy finding different blogskins till i got this... what do u guys think? still a lot of formatting to do for this blogsite of mine... give me time! =)

first thing in the morning i like thinking of Him...

2005-04-18T07:57:00.000+08:00

originally made: Friday, April 15, 2005 (recreated blogsite)

its 4.45am and im up already.. im using ISP's reloaded and taking advantage of its unlimited usage between 12-8am.. i actually got up about an hour ago and didn't know what to do.. i slept early last night, round about 8pm that's why i'm up this early... and so here i am, after reading blogs of my friends from Thomson, I've decided to go ahead and create my own...starting next week, bago na sked namin, off ko will be Sunday-Monday (im having a 4 day weekend now since my current off is fri-sat)... now that's cool! i was really hoping that someday Sunday would be our off cause I've always wanted to go to Mass first thing in the morning and give thanks... now u may think I'm corny pero ok lang..yes, I thirst for His Word and His guidance... there are many instances in my life when I shunned from him. i've done pretty much a lot of stupid things in my life that you can't imagine... it was tough... until I found my way back to Him... that's where I found peace and I can no longer let go of that... i love the thought that Forgiveness is His gift to us and it's just a matter of us accepting it by going back to Him. He was always there for me and still is, that is why in everything I do, I'll do my best to glorify Him in my actions/thoughts/words.I think that in order to measure, or feel the extent of His forgiveness, something has to happen to you to make u turn to Him... something big, something grave, something you can't help but think and feel sorry that you did it... something so regretful you feel that you'll never be forgiven no matter how sorry you are... that's just my personal opinion of course due to my own experience...I dont like to sound like a preacher but I dont wanna be ashamed of Him either. Im not saying I've completely changed my ways... im struggling alright! but im making the changes, im putting the effort, and i'll take it one step at a time, with His help..